Anybody have a spare 2.6K to donate to a worthy cause?

ME being the worthy cause, of course.
No?
Well, it was worth a try. 🙂

Yesterday I was reading Tara Whitney’s blog, my photographer/blogger hero, and saw that her and her friend Em are organising a ‘Find Yourself’ trip to Thailand in two and a half weeks.  Immediately my heart started beating at that nervously excited pace as I thought about what an amazing opportunity it would be.  If I could have one wish fulfilled at this point in time, this would be it.  Of course it’s beyond reason, but it didn’t stop me daydreaming about it all afternoon, and well into the night when I should have been sleeping. I’m sure I even thought about it in my sleep.  Now if only the money tree out in our back yard would start flowering dollar notes instead of lemons…
Then I started thinking about why I was so absorbed with the idea, fanciful as it might be.  Was it the idea of 7 glorious days to myself, not having to think of anyone but me?  Was it the thought of being able to eat breakfast in peace (and a buffet breakfast at that, not just toast or scraps of cereal). And lunch. And dinner. And anything else I wanted to snack on in between. And not have to share.  Maybe it was the 5 hours of spa treatment beckoning my imagination. Perhaps it was the shopping (for whatever I wanted, and not a grocery list in sight), the river cruise, the relaxing, the journalling, the adult conversation.
Admittedly I’m also drawn by the idea of having a one on one “sure to make me feel special” photo session with Tara – though there’s a very good reason why I’m normally on the ‘right side’ of the camera.  That way I don’t actually have to be in any photos.  But I could do with being made to feel special. Can’t any girl, at any given moment.  🙂  And of course it would be cool to ‘hang’ with Tara (don’t ask me where that expression came from) for a bit. I’d love to see how she works.  But mostly I’d just love to chill out and share a wine with her. She seems like she’d be a lot of fun.
So I guess it’s probably a combination of all the above.  Or maybe it’s none of the above.  Maybe I just need some time out to be ‘me’ again. Time to Find Myself.
In the meantime though, I’ll continue to find joy in being somebody’s mum, and wife (my favourite job), and friend, and photographer, all things I love and hold dearly. And each and every one of them making up a part of me, defining who I am.
Maybe I don’t need to go halfway round the world and spend lots of money after all.
But it’s sure nice to think about it.

Narrelle x